Friday, November 9, 2012
My constant companion
Today I just kept thinking over and over how grateful I am that Lila is still with me. I know that kind of goes without saying but for some reason today I was just struck with tons of gratitude. On this snowy day Lila and I cuddled and laughed and had such a great time together. She is my constant companion and my best little buddy. i have come to understand her personality so much more in the past few months, she is such a beautiful soul. I feel like we have a connection that can't be explained. I love how she smiles when she hears my voice, I love when I look back in the car and see her with me, I love when it gets real quiet she will sit and listen and then when she hears you break into a huge smile, I love that her laughs sometimes are huge full body movements, I love how she laughs when I laugh, and how she tries so desperately to turn her eyes to find me. I have wondered if I will still feel her with me after she is gone. I imagine that I will. How could someone be such a huge part of your soul and then just be gone? I've the feeling that she will always be my little constant companion.
Kristi,
ReplyDeleteIt breaks my heart that you even have to think that one day you won't have your precious Lila with you. I think that you are absolutely right. She will always be a part of your life from now until forever. Cherish every moment with that precious perfect baby girl!!
A few posts ago when you posted the picture of just you and Lila I had the same kind of thought about you two and while looking at the picture I was struck with how much you mean to her as her mother and how much she means to you as your daughter. It was such a touching feeling that I sat there for a few minutes staring at the picture trying to put into words how I felt while looking at it. It is such a beautiful mother-daughter picture :)
ReplyDeleteI agree Kris! Cherish every moment with her. She does has a beautiful soul that radiates! I have felt that with her. You are lucky that you get to feel it so often with her. She is lucky to have a mama like you!
ReplyDeleteYou have a special bond that transcends this world. Love you girls.
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