Wednesday, December 17, 2014


I think there are moments in this life when you realize an aware heavenly father is looking out for you. When we moved into this new neighborhood right before (Two weeks) Lila passed it was hard to not be in her space, to have her old bedroom and to sit in her sweet little spot where she always was. We started to panic that we weren't home. But I think that Lila knew that we were supposed to be in this house. She waited until we got in before she left us. I always said that I could never move from the house that she passed away in. I think she hung in until we were here. What made being here in this house so much easier was my next door neighbor Jill. I met her when we looked at the house. I knocked on her door and asked her if she liked the neighborhood. I instantly liked her and even though we looked at other houses I kept coming back  to this house because of the cute neighbor.  she really has been such an angel. There has yet to be the 26th of the month that has passed without her acknowledging it in some way. She doesn't get scared to talk to me about Lila.  And it is so nice to talk about my girl. She has been the friendly face in the neighborhood that made us feel that this could be home. When I mentioned to her that one of our couples in grief counseling said that what help them through the first Christmas was doing a sub for Santa for a little girl their daughters age Jill made sure to find us little 4 year old girl in need. we will go and get her a Christmas, in honor of Lila. I'm grateful for the tender mercies that Heavenly Father has given me. I know that I could not function without the love and support of family and friends. The acts of service that we have received are incredibly touching. But tonight I am very grateful for my sweet next door neighbor who jumped right in in my hour of need and took care of me.

Finally cuddly

Ruby hasn't been a cuddly child. it has been hard for me to not have those cuddles. Sweet Lila bear gave me so many wonderful moments of snuggle time that I was really missing it. But lately miss rue has been a bit of a cuddle bug. I love it so much. When I'm cuddling her it helps my heart

Monday, December 15, 2014


We have asked friends and family to leave lila an ornament at the cemetery. I have lived seeing the new ornaments  when I go visit her. I think she would love them.

Thursday, December 11, 2014

Costa rica

We had the amazing opportunity to go to Costa Rica with Quinn's high school friends and their wives. We had a wonderful time. 

The house we stayed at was incredible. Right on the beach with a pool and a staff to cook our meals. We were very spoiled. 

We kayaked to an island and collected sea shells 

The girls, Megan, Fran, Danielle, me, Rachel, Alyssa, Rachel and Tracy

Zip lining through the trees

Rachel and John Firmage, Ryan and Fran Jensen, rachel and james Lillian, ryan and megan verno, Ty and Danielle Perry, mike and Alissa firmage, Mike and tracy Irving, and steve Fletcher

Friday, November 28, 2014

Lila's tree

Lila's favorite holiday tradition was snuggling under the Christmas tree. The day after Thanksgiving we would always get our tree, put it up and gaze at the twinkling lights. This year we brought the tree to lila, so she could still lay beneath her beloved tree.