My friend lyndsay brought this quote over today.
Wednesday, September 30, 2015
Monday, September 28, 2015
It's that time of year again. The witches! I have such bittersweet feelings for the witches. I love them for tradition sake and the ushering of fall but I have struggled with them since Lila was born. It was about this time that we knew something was wrong with her that first year and she was wearing her little yellow glasses; but I thought next year she will be loving the witches and all will be fine. Well, the next year we were just a month shy of being diagnosed with Vici and our worst dreams realized. It was crushing to not see progress from one year to the next. Yet there is so much joy at the memory of the witches because we went every year. So many mixed feelings.
Saturday, September 26, 2015
Saturday, September 19, 2015
We got to swim with cousins the other night. The real treat was to have Josh and Nick come. We are so excited that they live closer now, hopefully we can see them more.
It was very bitter sweet to see Ruby laughing and twirling with Grace. Lila and Grace had such a special bond and always had so much fun swimming together. It made me teary just watching them.
Tuesday, September 15, 2015
Jill told me about Willa's fairy festival, a mother lost her daughter at four days old and has since held a fairy festival with all the proceeds going to charity. It was very magical and I'm sure will be a yearly tradition.
This picture is so beautiful and yet I have been sobbing looking at it. Our sweet neighbor could pass for Lila. This picture looks like this could very well have been my two girls. This is what it would have looked like if Lila had never been born sick. I wish my girls had each other. I am so sad they are not looking in fairy houses together and enjoying the magic. In this life we will just have sweet surrogates
Maclaren s was lilac jeweldancer. Watching her was really hard. She was wearing a small tulip necklace and she is just the right age. (They are six months apart) and just that her "name" ended up being lilac. It was tender day