Perfect ... Almost

Last night was one of those perfect nights. Ruby had decided that she no longer hated her brother, Eddie was snug in my arms and Quinn and Ruby danced to music and made houses out of blocks. It was so perfect until I realized it wasn't. I started to cry missing that one big piece. Ruby came to me and patted my hand and kept saying "it's ok mommy. You ok mommy?" I wonder how many times I will be so happy with my children and my life and  then break down because we aren't all together.  Quinn and I keep talking about how complete we would feel if Lila was here. It's hard to come to terms that I'll never have that. I'll never have all of my children in the same room. It's a devastating realization. We miss that little girl. I hope she is with us more than I can feel her. I hope my children know her and love her. I dream of the day when we will all be together 

More pics and first days home

Edison Evan Kimball

Edison Evan Kimball joined our family on October 22 2015. I was induced at eight in the morning and he came at 5:21 pm weighing Eight pounds .6 ounces and 18 and 1/2 inches long. 

We are so overjoyed to have this new addition, our sweet Eddie. As soon as they put him on my chest I fell madly in love. He is the most beautiful little thing.

My sister was kind enough to take these pictures. 

This is the moment that they called the doctor to come down. This is one of the most spiritual moments of my life. I don't want to say too much since it is so sacred to me but I can tell you that I knew Lila was with us. It was an overwhelming feeling and everyone who knew her in the room felt it. I am so glad that she got to be a part of welcoming a new family member. 

My brother Mikey surprised me and scheduled meetings in Utah so that he could be here for Eddie's birth. It was funny because we had been texting throughout the day and I kept telling him "I wish you were here" I was completely surprised. It was so fun to have him there

so much love

I was so excited to see how Ruby would react to her brother, we had been talking about it, reading books on getting a sibling, watching the episode of daniel tiger when he gets a new sister about a hundred times, I thought she would be so happy to meet him. I could hear her in the hall yelling "I want my baby" She came in took one look at him and said. "I don't want that baby. No Baby" uh oh! We have our work cut out for us

 meeting a few cousins 

How sweet is Ben? He is so excited for a little boy 

The play room

Can you tell I'm nesting? Two nurseries and a play room. This play room has been a big project and yet it's been really fun to create a place that my kids will hopefully love to be. 

Ruby loves the kitchen, table and chairs. They were mine when I was a little girl. It's been so fun to watch her fall in love with something that represents my childhood so well. 

We have to get Lila in wherever we can. 

Our reading nook  

This spot under the stairs my be my favorite. With the comfy pillow and the star sky I hope the kiddos will have lots of hours day dreaming in here.