My baby girl left me four months ago today. I can't believe that it's been so long, a whole season, and yet it feels like it's been ten years since I've held her. I ache. My heart is so tired of constantly missing and yearning. At times it goes numb to try and repair itself and then a memory will spring into my mind and it shatters again. This is the longest nightmare and I can't seem to wrap my mind around the fact that she isn't coming back to me. How can she not come back to me?!