Lately I have been feeling a bit blue. I don't know if its the weather or because this holiday season is not what I pictured when I imagined having a toddler at Christmas. Either way I have lost sight of the meaning of this life. I know Heavenly Father gave me Lila to make me a better person but sometimes I would really like to be just mediocre. Just a normal person with normal kids. I wouldn't even mind if she was a bit naughty just if she could be alright. So today I got a reminder of what I need to aspire to.
A dear friend gave me a gift today and it touched me in more ways than one. We are in similar situations. We are both going to loose dear sweet baby girls, our little angels, and yet she is constantly lifting me up. Today she gave me the gift of having photos taken of little miss. I cannot tell you the value of Photos in my situation. Knowing I will have images of Lila after she is gone is amazingly comforting. Not only was this gift worth its weight in gold, it was a lovely reminder of what this life is about. Helping each other through this life and serving one another. She is definitely something to aspire to. She has a gift of helping others and knowing just what to do and say to make them feel better and strengthened. I hope someday I can be like her.
So while I don't know how she would feel about me using her name, since she is local and knows some of you,(I'm sure a few of you have guessed) I just want to say thank you! Thank you for being a true friend and for living in Holland with me!