IVF- We need a miracle!!

 We have decided to go ahead with IVF. Our clinic is working with us on finding the best plan for us now that the guarantee program is off the table. We are doing one cycle. We have saved enough, and people have donated enough for this one try, which is exactly the position I never wanted to be in. The stress of it all is pretty overwhelming. That and the fact that if this actually works it will be nothing short of a miracle. The preliminary work ups on me and my body are not coming back great. It looks like I am pretty infertile. Who would have guessed? Our little angel baby was pretty easy to get here.
So, once again. I am begging you for your prayers. This would be a miracle, and my family needs a miracle right now. I hate to think that finding this crazy obscure syndrome on the internet then finding a family whose child had the disease through social networking who then could lead us to doctors halfway across the globe who could take our blood and confirm a gene was all for naught. I hope there was a larger purpose for all of that.
I know I am being pretty open on a very public forum but we have had wonderful things happen to us because people read this blog and I am hoping that lots of prayers will come from being so open. I probably wont put every aspect of the journey on the blog. Its would be just too hurtful if it doesn't take but here is out first shot. Lucky for me I have two wonderful girls who have traveled this road before me right on my same street! So they came over and helped me with my first shot. Since we have some challenges I have to do two a day instead of the normal one. ugh.

Lena watching me to make sure I am mixing the meds right. I was struggling. I was shaking so hard I think I lost some of the mixture. Finally Larisse took over (pic below) and now mixing and shot giving is a Quinn job. We will all be better off.

The girls checking to make sure I have everything I need. Thank goodness cause it all looks like Chinese to me.

Rethinking this whole process........ Just kidding but I am not to thrilled about those shots.

Lena giving my newly punctured tummy a love pat.

Yeah! One done and about ...... I don't even want to know.... to go!!
Poor Quinn and I are feeling the stress. I had a dream that I was on a cruise and was trying to find a helicopter to take me to my ultrasound. Quinn had a dream that he slept walked and had mixed up a shot and woke up wondering how he was going to tell me....  They say try not to stress but easier said than done. If anyone knows some good techniques I am all ears

Thanks Lena and Larisse for being my go-to girls and taking many tear filled phone calls, giving words of encouragement and explaining medical jargon. I would be lost without you!

If you happen to be LDS my family is having a special fast for our family this fast Sunday. We would love it if you would join us. If you aren't we would love your prayers and good thoughts for us during this journey. Thank you!