Honoring Lila

Yesterday was the 25th but I felt like it was the anniversary of Lila's death. It was a Saturday and brought back so many emotions. I really wanted to lay in my bed and sob. My friends decided that the better way to honor Lila was to use our bodies, a gift she was never able to fulfill in this life. So they signed me up for the tulip 5 k at thanksgiving point. I was dreading it. I just wanted to hide in a hole, but it was good to honor her by walking. We walked through where we took family pictures a year ago. I haven't been back since and while it was excruciating it reminded me of her last and final smile in the parking lot. Oh how I miss this girl.